Margaret Remembers

Chapter 06 - Margaret Remembers
We reached my mother's apartment at half past midnight.
Queens looked smaller in the rain, all brick walls and yellow windows and gutters overflowing into the street. I had lived there most of my life, in buildings where neighbors knew your business because the walls were thin and grief had nowhere else to go.
Two of Luca's men stood beneath the awning.
Another waited by the stairwell.
The lock on my mother's door had been scratched.
Not forced.
Tested.
Luca noticed before I did.
He touched the mark with one finger, then looked at Marco.
"Who came?"
"Tall. Gray coat. Cap low. He left before we could cross the street without making a scene."
"Camera?"
"Building camera is dead. Convenience store across the road might have him."
"Get it."
I pushed past them and unlocked the door.
"Mom?"
The apartment smelled of Vicks, tea, and the lemon cleaner my mother used when she was frightened. She sat at the kitchen table in a robe, pale and too thin, one hand wrapped around a mug she had not drunk from.
When she saw me, her face collapsed.
"Emma."
I reached her in three steps and knelt beside her chair. My shoulder screamed, but I didn't care.
"I'm here. I'm okay."
Her hands moved over my face, then my sweater, then the bandage visible at my collar.
"You're hurt."
"It's not bad."
"Don't lie to your mother."
The sharpness in her voice nearly broke me. She had been weak for weeks, moving like every breath cost money. But beneath the illness was still Margaret Collins, who had raised me alone with two jobs and a drawer full of coupons.
Luca stood near the door, not entering until my mother noticed him.
Her eyes widened.
"You."
I looked between them.
"Mom?"
Luca's brows drew together.
"Mrs. Collins."
My mother gripped the table edge.
"You look like him."
"Like who?" I asked.
She did not answer me.
She looked at Luca as if he were a ghost wearing an expensive suit.
"You look like your father."
Luca inclined his head slightly.
"I hear that as both a compliment and a warning."
My mother surprised me by giving a small, breathless laugh.
Then the laugh turned into a cough.
I reached for her water.
Luca stayed back. That restraint, more than any courtesy, made her trust him enough to keep looking.
"You brought trouble to my door," she said.
"No," Luca answered. "It was already there. I followed it."
She closed her eyes.
"Isabella always said you would be direct."
The room went silent.
I sat back on my heels.
"You knew his mother."
My mother opened her eyes.
"Yes."
"Why didn't you tell me?"
Her face crumpled, and suddenly she looked older than she had that morning.
"Because I wanted one part of your life untouched by that house."
Luca pulled out the chair opposite her.
"May I?"
She nodded.
He sat.
It made the kitchen feel impossibly small. Luca Moretti, who belonged in marble foyers and courtrooms where people lied under oath, sat at my mother's scarred Formica table beneath a calendar from the local pharmacy.
"Margaret," he said softly, "Vanessa Bellini has my mother's journals. Paolo helped her leave the estate. Someone threatened you tonight. I need to know what you remember."
My mother looked at me.
"You work there?"
I swallowed.
"Yes."
"For him?"
"For the house."
"Emma."
"I needed the job."
Pain moved through her expression, the kind of pain mothers carry when poverty makes their children stand too close to danger.
She turned back to Luca.
"Your mother saved my life."
Luca did not move.
"How?"
"I was nineteen. My father had died, and my aunt got me temporary work with the gardeners at your estate. Isabella was kind. Not the soft kind. The useful kind. She noticed when people were hungry."
My mother rubbed her thumb along the mug handle.
"One afternoon, I saw Paolo near the conservatory with Aldo Bellini. They were arguing. I didn't know names then. I only knew Paolo because he drove your father. Aldo had a teenage girl with him. Blonde. Pretty. Angry. Vanessa."
Luca leaned forward slightly.
"What were they arguing about?"
"Money. And a ledger. Aldo said Salvatore had gotten careless, that Isabella was looking into accounts she had no business looking into. The girl laughed and said women should learn which doors stay closed."
My mother shivered.
"She couldn't have been more than twenty, but she had eyes like broken glass."
I thought of Vanessa smiling at dinner while my uniform bled through.
"What happened after that?" I asked.
"I told Isabella. She didn't seem surprised. She gave me an envelope of cash and told me to leave Chicago for a while. I refused. I was young and stupid and insulted by charity."
Luca's voice was quiet. "My mother could be persuasive."
"She slapped me."
My eyes widened.
Mom nodded faintly.
"Right across the face. Then she said, 'Pride is not armor, Margaret. Take the money and live.' So I did."
She looked at me.
"I met your father two months later. He was sweet then. Before the drinking. Before disappointment made him mean. I told myself the Morettis were someone else's storm."
Luca's jaw tightened.
"Why would Vanessa care about you now?"
"Because I can place her at the estate before she claimed to know you. Because I saw Paolo hand her father a key."
I felt the air shift.
"A key to what?"
"I don't know. But Isabella did. She wrote it down. She wrote everything down."
Luca looked toward the window, where rain ran in crooked lines.
"Did my mother ever contact you after you left?"
My mother hesitated.
Too long.
"Mom."
She stood slowly, bracing herself on the table. I tried to help, but she waved me off and shuffled to the bedroom. When she returned, she carried an old biscuit tin faded with blue flowers.
My chest tightened.
I had seen that tin my whole life. It held sewing needles, canceled stamps, emergency cash, buttons cut from old coats.
She opened it.
Inside, beneath a packet of needles, lay a cream envelope.
Luca recognized the handwriting before I did.
His face changed.
"My mother."
My mother handed it to him.
"She sent it after you took over the family. I never opened it."
"Why?"
"Because the outside said not to."
Luca turned the envelope over.
On the back, in neat blue ink, Isabella Moretti had written:
For Margaret Hale Collins. Open only if my son brings danger to your daughter's door.
I could not breathe.
My mother's eyes filled.
"I think," she whispered, "tonight counts."
Luca opened the envelope.
Inside was one letter and a small photograph.
The photograph showed my mother at nineteen, standing in the Moretti garden beside Isabella. Between them stood a little girl in overalls, maybe four years old, holding Bruno as a puppy.
Me.
I stared.
"I don't remember this."
"You were too young," my mother said. "I brought you once when my sitter canceled. Isabella gave you lemonade. Bruno knocked you down and licked your face. You laughed for ten minutes."
Luca looked at the letter.
He read silently.
Then read again.
His face had gone pale beneath the olive tone of his skin.
"What does it say?" I asked.
He looked at my mother.
"You don't know?"
She shook her head.
Luca handed the letter to me.
My hands trembled as I unfolded it.
Margaret,
If Luca has come to you because of your daughter, then the Bellinis have returned closer than I feared. I am sorry. I tried to keep your child outside our sins.
There is a second ledger. The first is bait.
The true record is not in my safe.
It is with the girl Bruno loved first.
I looked up slowly.
My mother's face had gone white.
"Mom," I whispered, "what is she talking about?"
She sank back into the chair.
Then, in a voice I barely recognized, she said, "Emma, go get the blue quilt from my closet."
I didn't move.
"Now," she said.
I went.
At the back of her closet, folded behind winter coats, was a worn blue quilt with yellow stitching.
The same thread as Bruno's blanket.
When I brought it to the kitchen, Bruno, who had been lying by the door, lifted his head and whined.
Luca stood slowly.
My mother touched the quilt as if it were alive.
"Isabella made this for you," she said.
Then she turned it over and began searching the hem with shaking fingers.
A seam opened.
Something slid out.
A small black ledger.
And on its first page, written in Isabella's hand, was Vanessa Bellini's name.
Not once.
May you like
Dozens of times.
The oldest entry was dated thirteen years ago.