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The Woman Nobody Would Look At

Chapter 01 - The Woman Nobody Would Look At

The first person to notice that Allison Romano was crying was the maid. Not her husband, seated three chairs away. Not the hostess in red silk who had spent twenty minutes talking about loyalty. The maid, who had been instructed to keep her eyes lowered, saw the tears gathering at the corners of Allison's eyes and the way she folded her napkin until it was no wider than a ribbon.

"Take her plate," Vanessa Bellini said.

Emily Carter stopped with the silver tray balanced against her hip. Around the long dining table, thirty people went quiet in the unconvincing way people do when they are desperate to hear what happens next. The chandelier above them was the size of a small car. White roses filled three enormous crystal bowls. In front of Allison, the roast chicken was untouched.

"I'm sorry?" Emily asked.

"Mrs. Romano has had enough." Vanessa's voice was smooth and well practiced. "She isn't welcome at this table. Clear her place."

Allison did not raise her head. She was forty-two, with dark hair clipped carelessly behind one ear and a navy dress that had been let out at the waist. She had spent a full hour dressing for this engagement dinner. She had almost turned the car around twice.

"I haven't had anything to drink," she said.

That made the room stiller. Her water glass remained full, the ice hardly melted. Vanessa glanced at it, and for one unguarded instant her practiced expression went slack.

An hour earlier, Vanessa had toasted honorable families while Adrian applauded. Allison tried to speak to him afterward. "Not the time," he whispered. There was always a better time: after a contract, after Christmas, after some problem had gone away.

Just before the soup course, Vanessa had asked, loudly enough for several guests to hear, whether Allison had "been drinking again." Allison had said no. Vanessa smiled sympathetically and turned away. The humiliation had been arranged before the maid ever came near her.

"Allison," said Adrian Romano, "please don't make this worse."

Emily watched Allison turn toward her husband. It was the smallest movement, hardly more than a tilt of the chin, but it contained the terrible hope of someone accustomed to being disappointed. Adrian studied a stain on the tablecloth.

At the far end of the table, Luca Moretti put down his fork. He was thirty-five, with dark hair, a close beard, and tattooed hands that had made bankers nervous and children curious. Chicago newspapers preferred to describe his family as "connected." He preferred not to discuss the family at all.

"Why is Allison being asked to leave?" he said.

"It's a private matter," Vanessa answered quickly. "She hasn't been herself lately. Adrian agrees."

"I didn't ask what Adrian agrees with."

Luca rose. The chair made no noise on the thick carpet. Emily knew that kind of quiet: the quiet before somebody decided a different person's life for them.

Allison finally looked at Adrian. "Just tell him."

Adrian reached for his water, changed his mind, and left the glass where it was.

"Adrian?" she whispered.

Luca followed her gaze. "Why won't your husband even look at you?"

Nobody answered. A guest near the fireplace took an enormous interest in the white roses.

There had been a time when Allison would have defended herself vigorously. At thirty she could put a rude contractor in his place without raising her voice. At forty she had begun to notice how often Adrian described her feelings to others before she could speak for herself. "She's tired," he would say when she was angry. "She's emotional," when she disagreed. In his mouth, even a reasonable question could become evidence of instability.

Tonight he had dressed carefully and brought her favorite scarf in the car. He had remembered that she hated air-conditioning against her neck. She could not make those small kindnesses fit with the look he was giving Vanessa across the table, as though both of them were following a plan to which Allison had never been invited.

Emily had been working at Moretti House for eleven months. She was twenty-five and had learned to carry six glasses in one hand, to recognize a guest who needed a chair, and to ignore conversations until people began speaking as if she wasn't there. She knew who took sugar and who drank to forget their own company. What she did not know was why the woman in the navy dress had stared at her name tag on entering the room.

Vanessa lifted one finger. "Emily. The plate. Now."

The maid looked at Allison's hands, clenched around the napkin. She thought of her own mother, who had raised her above a diner on Halsted Street and died believing courtesy was one thing no one could take from you without your permission.

"She's still eating," Emily said.

The declaration was plainly ridiculous. Allison had not touched her supper. Nevertheless, Emily took the tray away from her hip and set it on the sideboard without moving the plate.

Vanessa blinked. "Excuse me?"

"Her plate stays unless she asks me to take it."

A woman near the end of the table breathed out something that might have been a laugh. Luca looked at Emily not as one looks at an employee but as one looks at a stranger who has just found the one correct sentence in a badly conducted argument.

"Allison," he said, "would you like to leave?"

She shook her head.

"Then stay."

Vanessa pushed back her chair. "Luca, you've no idea what she's been saying."

"Then I would like to hear it from her."

Allison slipped a folded piece of paper from the little purse on her lap. She had kept it there through the hors d'oeuvres, through Vanessa's toast, through Adrian's hand pressing hard against her knee under the table. The paper was badly creased and carried the pale violet imprint of a hospital stamp.

"I found out this morning," Allison said. "Someone has been sending letters about me for almost two years. Letters about a baby. And my husband has been answering them."

Adrian's face had the gray, emptied look of a man who had run out of explanations before being asked for one.

"What baby?" Luca asked.

"Mine. I was seventeen. They told me she died." Allison stared at the untouched chicken as if the words were written there. "I didn't come to ruin your dinner. I came because the woman who wrote the letters was told to come to this house tonight."

A spoon fell onto the carpet. Vanessa made a quick, unnecessary movement toward the paper.

"Who told her?" Luca asked.

"I don't know." Allison's voice broke, then steadied. "I thought perhaps she would arrive as a guest."

Emily's hand tightened on the silver tray. Something about the date printed near the bottom of the paper tugged at her: October 14, 2001. Her own birthday. An ordinary coincidence, of course. Chicago had more than two million people. There were countless babies born on a Sunday in October.

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But Allison looked across the table, past Luca and Vanessa and all those careful faces, directly at the maid.

"Her name," Allison said, "was Emily."

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